I'm Burning and I'm Black in My Lungs

I write this while gritting my teeth and shaking my head.

I don't know how to explain this but after speaking to Alez we decided that something is definitely wrong with us. Lately EVERYTHING (including cute chirping little birdies) irritates the living shit out of me. This is up to the point of not wanting to even speak to people because it irritates me too much to open my mouth. I will find everything wrong about people, including my friends, and I will pick at those things until I end up hurting feelings and stuck in an angry huff. It's truly getting to me. I don't feel like the person I used to be and I don't want to hurt the people I love the most because without them, I really am nothing.

But right now, all I feel like doing is screaming. Screaming until all this anger is fucking gone.

Look inside

Look inside your tiny mind

Now look a bit harder

Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor

Fuck you

Fuck you very, very much

Cause we hate what you do

And we hate your whole crew

So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you

Fuck you very, very much

Cause your words don't translate

And it's getting quite late

So please don't stay in touch

Do you

Do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful?

Cause there's a hole where your soul should be

Your losing control of it and it's really distasteful

Fuck you

Fuck you very, very much

Cause we hate what you do

And we hate your whole crew

So please don't stay in touch

You say, you think we need to go to war

Well you're already in one,

Cause its people like you

That need to get slew

No one wants your opinion

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you

Well I guess that pretty much sums it up...


So Alez and I have book appointments with our counselor for next week because we have realised that this is not normal behavior and hopefully we'll be back to our usually awesome selves.

I just want to say that I'm not normally an angry person, I don't believe in hate and I would never want to intentionally hurt someone. But if I have said something offensive to anyone I know lately, please believe that I am really sorry.



F******************CK <3