Monday, February 28, 2011

Playlist of the week

•Lights - Ellie Goulding
•For Emma - Bon Iver
•Forget You(Cee Lo Green cover) - The Pretty Reckless
•You Make My Dreams - Hall & Oats
•Paper Thin Walls - Modest Mouse
•February Air - Lights
•Just A Boy - Angus & Julia Stone
•Dance So Good - Wakey! Wakey!
•I'm Goin' Down - Kid Harpoon ft. Florence and The Machine
•Let It Fall - Lykke Li
•Please Mr Postman - The Beatles
•Are You Happy Now - Ellie Goulding
•You Will Leave a Mark - A Silent Film
•Every You Every Me - Placebo
•Here Comes Your Man - Meaghan Smith
•Boys Don't Cry - The Cure
•Violet - Hole
•Baby Please Don't Go - Led Zeppelin
•Salt Pepa and Spinderella - Johnny Foreigner
•Sweet Disposition - The Temper Trap
•California Girls(Beach Boy cover) - Wakey! Wakey!
•Ever Fallen in Love - The Stiff Dylans
•Dance Dance Dance - Lykke Li
•The Girl - City and Colour
•Halo(Beyonce cover) - Florence and The Machine
•You Got What I Need - Joshua Radin
•You Got The Love(Florence + The Machine cover) - The XX
•Little Lion Man - Mumford & Sons
•Dancing In The Dark - Tegan & Sara
•Dashboard - Modest Mouse
•Why Do You Let Me Stay Here - She & Him
•Just Like Heaven - The Cure
•No One's Gonna Love You - Band of Horses
•Twist and Shout - The Beatles
•Big Jet Plane - Angus & Julia Stone

*Bonus Track: Que Sera - Hannah Montana (seriously)

These are just a few of my favourite songs for this week. Happy listening:)

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Expectations (exclamation mark)

Its human condition to expect.

And I think sometimes we expect too much.

We expect our friends to always be there. We expect to get home safely. We expect a romance to last a lifetime. We expect that phone call. We expect forgiveness. We expect to forget. We expect that there's always going to be a tomorrow.

But I'm done with expectations. I don't want to hold on to things anymore. I want to live every day as if Life itself pulled me out of bed, shoved some food down my throat and kicked my ass out of the door saying, "Go out and get it. Give it your all. No regrets. No expectations."

I don't want to sit around waiting for an sms. I don't want to regret saying goodbye to that girl who I should have given a chance to. I don't want to wait for life to fall into my lap.

From now on, I'm grabbing Life by the balls and letting go. Free falling.

Yes, that's it, free falling<3

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Just Like Heaven

I keep seeing this girl in my dreams. Every night I dream of her, without fail. Every night I get caught up in her. Every night I have to re-live those emotions. And because I dream of her every night, I wake up and think of her all day. She won't give me peace of mind and yet I don't know if I want her to go either. Now every song I listen to reminds me of her, everything I do leads back to her. She's become so much a part of my life and she's not even in it... This song in particular has been drumming through my head today when I catch myself thinking of her:

Just Like Heaven
By The Cure


"Show me, show me, show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream" she said
"The one that makes me laugh" she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face I kissed her neck
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Oh, won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you"

Soft and only
Lost and lonely
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

Soft and only
Lost and lonely
Just like heaven

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

The Girl

The Girl
By City and Colour


I wish I could do better by you,
Cause its what you deserve.
You sacrifice so much of your whole life,
In order for this to work.

While I'm off chasing my own dreams,
Sailing around the world,
Please know that I'm yours to keep,
My beautiful girl.

When you cry a piece of my heart dies,
Knowing that I may have been the cause,
If you were to leave, fulfil someone else's dreams,
I think I might totally be lost.

You don't ask for no diamond rings,
No delicate string of pearls,
That's why I wrote this song to sing,
My beautiful girl.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Candace Campbell

My Pretty Candance
My Perfectly Imperfect<3

Where do I even start?

I think the first time I ever spoke to Candace was when I was walking around school in matric, quoting the movie, Just Friends, "is it another girl? Its okay 'cos I like girls...*Darla*" and she quoted it back to me. And then every time I saw her after that, we would also quote it to each other.

We were Facebook friends but never really spoke, but one day I decided to put an end to that and broke the ice.

We became friends and started talking almost every day. I shared all my secrets with her and she shared hers with me. We formed a very rare bond, one that was stronger than we realised. We were both experiencing love-related turmoil and we helped each other through them. I trusted her. And I think she knew that. I think that's why we work.

Due to certain circumstances, we weren't allowed to keep contact, but during this time I still would seek her help and advice (even though I wasn't allowed to) and no matter how upset I was, just hearing her voice was enough to make everything seem fine. She made me feel like my world was okay.

About a year passed and we rekindled our friendship. And I want her to know that she has the hugest part of my heart. She means everything to me and even when we're apart, there's not a single thing I wouldn't do for her. I'd give my life for her.

She's actually my future wife. We're going to live by the sea, and train penguins. She'll straighten my curls and I'll tickle her. We'll adopt many cheeeeldren and drive around singing. We'll eat Chinese and drink aloe juice and spend every day laughing. We'll remain the biggest devoted Marilyn Monroe fans and we'll read poetry together. But most importantly, we'll be perfectly imperfect and imperfectly perfect together<3

I love you, my PI. I always have and I always will.

Please be my Valentine?

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

.young thrills.those crazy kids.

The stumbling rush to the door. Hands on hands on keys on bodies on lips... The muddling of body parts as he kisses every inch of my neck. Inexperienced giggles and nervous sighs.


His skin is so hungry for mine, a touch i've never felt before, an itch that crawls under my pulse.

"Those crazy kids"


I can't help but melt into his giant hands. They're not small and delicate. They're not whispering. They're not trying to hide. They're on fire and they light me up... Up... UP.

That trinkle of pain that cries down my spine. It's only pain. But pain can be beautiful. And beautiful it becomes. It's beautiful again and again. He's beautiful. Beautifully simple.


Playing with the shadows, dancing on my body. I'm comfortably his. Just for this moment. Just while he holds me. But I have to go...

"Just lay with me a little longer"
I know I need to go. He knows he can't have any more of me. We compromise and settle for sweet, childish smiles.

Its all the same. Man.Woman.(wo)man.people.

... And now, we're one. Me and Him.