Layer Cakes

So I found this picture and it made me think of Cayla and her lovely Layer Cake blog. I really miss her and I hope she is having a delicious day. I love you silly little Gayla. Now come plaaaaaay<3

Life's Little Quirks

I just had the weirdest/cutest moment. While walking along the main road, on my way home I was approached by a homeless man. I was startled because I didn't see him coming and after asking me how I was he proceeded with "I'm really sorry to do this to you" - immediately I started to panic, I was expecting the worst and thought he was going to mug me of my phone or roller bag I was dragging behind me.

Instead, he asked if I had any coins to give him. I reached into my wallet and after pulling out only a few cents I had this overwhelming sensation to give him something more. So I asked him to walk across the road with me so I could draw some money for him. I could only afford to give him R50 but still he was so grateful and he decided to walk me home.

On our walk he explained his feelings of climatic changes and how Cape Town can experience three seasons in just one day. We were joking and I got to see a completely different side to what I had expected. He was so warm. When we finally arrived outside of my flat I shook his hand and wished him luck and his reply really surprised me.

"It's not for me to thank you. I believe there is a higher power that will thank you for me, in the form of a miracle"

I am now going to bed with a warm heart<3

Don't give up on society altogether, you never know when you'll get your next surprise.

A Day for You, Mom.

So yesterday was Mother's Day and even though I wasn't with my mom, the day didn't lose its importance. I am a full-blown mommy's girl and I always will be. That may be because I have a mom worth mentioning.

Jenefer Lynne Lozzi, a blonde bombshell who only has the capacity to love. I have so many moments I hold dear to me that involve my mom. Moments such as air guitaring to Bohemian Rhapsody, wrestling just to see who is stronger, getting breakfast in bed without having to ask for it, getting six calls a day from her if I'm not feeling well and laughing uncontrollably about nothing at all.

My mom and I haven't had the easiest road and I would be lying if I said that I wish some things were different, but I love her for who she is and for everything she has done for me.

She has given me something that can't be bought or traded, she has given me more love than I'll ever need.

My mom can't afford to buy me the world, but that doesn't mean she wouldn't if she could. My mom would give me money if i needed it, even though she doesn't have lots of it. My mom helped me through my toughest challenges. When I was suffering depression, she picked it up before anyone else and help me get over it. When my heart was broken, my mom would sit up with me and wipe away my tears. Instead of getting upset and bad mouthing the girl who broke my heart, she would tell me that everything is going to be alright and that I should never stop loving. My mom takes pride in the fact that I'm different. Most importantly, my mom accepts that I am gay and she loves me none the less.

This woman has inspired me to be who I am. She has inspired me to help others and to love no matter what. I hope that one day I am half the mother that she is and I know she's going to make just as great a granny to my children.

Mama, you are the light of my life and whenever I miss you, I know that you are in my heart and that's as far as i have to look.

I love you<3 with my heart and soul<3

Me and my mama

"Being a good parents isn't about giving your child the world, it's about giving them a world of love"

Happy Mother's Day

The Torch of Q&A

Cayla, my dear Cayla, passed on the torch of question to me and I shall answer them at the best of my ability. Take a look at her answers at Layer Cake

 "I have decided to post a few questions about me and answer them in order for anyone who reads my blog to get to know me a little bit more, if they don't already. I am then going to pass this onto a fellow blogger to answer and they can then pass it on too, its a great way to get to know the people of my little "blog world". Here we go..."

Where did the title of your blog come from or what inspired it?

Under My Skin - was just how I saw things. This is a blog that allows people to see who I am behind my appearance (under my skin) and to get to know me. The real me I guess.

Are you more of an extrovert or an introvert?

I'm pretty much an extrovert in any situation. Sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad but most the time it's just silliness:)

What makes you really sad?

Missing someone / People that can't forgive / People thinking they're better than animals / Movies about love / When I run out of tea / When I don't have feelings for someone who has them for me / Music / Children's books / When my clothes get stolen / Saying goodbye / When you wait for that reply and it never comes. Sigh.

What makes you really happy?

Music / Oreo McFlurries with extra oreo in the middle of the night / When someone randomly thinks of me / Dancing / Rain / Poetry - Pablo Neruda / Going on pretend dates with boys / Writing / My baby (doggy) back home / When I walk down Long Street and feel the energy of everyone around me / Going to Rcaffe to eat the best sandwich in the world and sitting in the window to people watch / Phone calls that never end / Watching series with Sarah / Cheesy puffs (the ones you bake) / Brushing my teeth / When someone gives you something that came from their heart / Someone giving me their heart.

Favorite book you have ever read?

No book has ever made me happy and sad and in love all at the same time, the way that Looking for Alaska did.

Where did you grow up?

I grew up in the town of Edenvale in Johannesburg where my whole family still currently lives. I am the first child from the family to leave that town.

What is your favorite event from your adulthood so far?

Being in love and moving to Cape Town<3

What is your favorite event from your childhood?

When my whole family, including my 9 cousins, 5 aunts and uncles, parents and grandparents used to have game days. just spending the whole day having one-legged races in the garden, doing handstands, dancing and singing. 

Just  random memories - my mommy used to make me warm cornflakes with the sugar on top. She knew exactly how I liked it.

When she was making supper that included rice she would always give me a small bowl of rice before everything was ready, with a bit of butter melted into it. It made me feel special.

When my brother got mumps he gave it to me too and I remember my mom sitting on her bed with my head on her one leg and my brother's on the other. We were both crying in agony and she just sat there all day, stroking our heads and wiping away our tears. 

I guess my mom holds a very special place in my heart. I could never live without her.

What is your motto in life?

I don't really have a motto. I guess I just try act as silly as possible and say things when they shouldn't be said. I'd hate to die being the girl who took things too seriously or who had too many secrets.

What kind of people do you get along with?

I like people who don't try too hard. People who don't take me seriously because they'd be extremely offended otherwise. People who I could possibly fall in love with, because if you could love them, you sure as hell can like them=)

What are you best at?

I think I'm best at falling in love. I fall in love with people and things too easily. But I don't think in a bad way, I think that finding something in someone to love, makes you a braver person. I also forgive very easily, I'm great at that. If someone needs me, I'll be there.

Who do you respect the most?

People who can forgive and my parents.

Would you like to be famous?

Not famous, just known. I'd like to be known for doing something I love and being good at it.

What kind of man/woman would you like to marry?

Someone who can laugh as much as I do. Someone who I can be a child with. Someone who can find beauty in anything. Someone who wants to ask me questions just to hear the sound of my voice. Someone who wants to share themselves. Someone who wants to go driving around in the middle of the night to hold my hand. Someone who will dance with me in the rain. Someone who loves my family and friends as much as I do. Someone who isn't scared of "forever" <3

What cartoon character best fits you?

Mickey Mouse because he was nothing without his friends, he wasn't afraid of loving Minnie, he liked adventures and helping out when problems arose, he had fun every moment he could, he was topless (tee hee) and he was a cartoon whereas i dream of being one.

If you could live anywhere in the world for a year, where would it be?

France because I would die of happiness waking up every morning to that accent.

If you could try anything and could not fail, what dream would you attempt?

To be a singer for an Indie band (don't laugh)

What superpower would you want and why?

"To read minds and to teleport" - going with Cayla on this one, but also the power to turn sadness into happiness. I hate seeing people sad.

Are you a beach, country, or city girl?

I'm a Cape Town girl because it has a bit of everything - beach, mountains, city and a bit of country.

I'll now pass these questions over to my friend Gemma at eMOTIVE
She's new to the blogging world so show her some support!

Thank you <3

Upsie, Downsie.

I am now very convinced that the weather in Cape Town is worse than a hormonal teenage boy. Hot and then cold, up and down, windy and rainy. It's cold in the morning and then blistering in the afternoon and visa versa.

This kind of behavior is enough to get any young gal dazed and confused.

Just like the weather, my emotions seem to be on some kind of roller coaster too. I feel warm and fuzzy and then overly excited and then I feel slight melancholy. I can't sleep and that leads to me acting in a delirious manner with the use of incomplete sentences and incorrect hyperbole.

I think my head and my heart need a vacation. Somehow I feel like I'm on an 'emotion cliff-edge' if you will...

They'll Clap Anyway

By The Arcade Fire
From the Album Neon Bible

***

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

I'm standing on a stage
Of fear and self-doubt
It's a hollow play
But they'll clap anyway

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key

I'm living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the shapes fill my head

I'm living in an age
Whose name I don't know
Though the fear keeps me moving
Still my heart beats so slow

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
My body is a

My body is a cage
We take what we're given
Just because you've forgotten
That don't mean you're forgiven

I'm living in an age
That screams my name at night
But when I get to the doorway
There's no one in sight

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key

Set my spirit free
Set my spirit free
Set my body free

<3

Home&Love

HOME
-By Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros

***

Alabama, Arkansas
I do love my ma and pa
But not the way I do love you
Well, holy moly, me-oh-my, you're the apple of my eye
Girl, I never loved one like you

Man, oh, man, you're my best friend, I'll scream it to the nothingness
There ain't nothin' that I need
Well, hot and heavy, pumpkin pie, chocolate cake and Jesus Christ
Ain't nothin' please me more than you

Home, let me come home
Home is wherever I'm with you
Oh home, yes, I am home
Home is when I'm alone with you

La, la, la, la, take me home
Mother, I'm comin' home

I'll follow you into the park, through the jungle, through the dark
Girl, I never loved one like you
Moats and boats and waterfalls, alley ways and pay-phone calls
I've been everywhere with you, that's true

Laugh until we think we'll die, barefoot on a summer night
Never could be sweeter than with you
And in the streets we're runnin' free like it's only you and me
Jeez, you're somethin' to see

Home, let me come home
Home is wherever I'm with you
Oh home, yes, I am home
Home is when I'm alone with you

La, la, la, la, take me home
Daddy, I'm comin' home

Jane, Alexander
Do you remember that day you fell out of my window?
I sure do, you came jumpin' out after me
Well, you fell on the concrete and nearly broke your ass
And you were bleedin' all over the place and I rushed you off to the hospital
You remember that?
Yes, I do
Well, there's somthin' I never told you about that night
Why didn't you tell me?
While you were sittin' there in the backseat smokin' a cigarette
That you thought was gonna be your last
I was fallin' deep, deeply in love with you and I never told you 'til just now

Home, let me come home
Home is wherever I'm with you
Oh home, yes, I am home
Home is when I'm alone with you

Home, let me come home
Home is wherever I'm with you
Oh home, yes, I am home
Home is when I'm alone with you

Alabama, Arkansas
I do love my ma and pa
Moats and boats and waterfalls
Lay awake 'til break of dawn

Home is wherever I'm with you
Home is when I'm alone with you

<3